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Literary: (Com)Promise



I promise you the universe and all the galaxies in it.

Yet in truth, I cannot offer you even a single star. You’re perfectly aware of how little of myself I can give you but you look past that and still insist on loving someone like me. I will never understand why.

I promise that you will always come first.

I can never be your first priority because there will always be something more important. Your world is much greater than I, for I am merely a part of it. That is all right, though, for I know my boundaries. I know the restricted areas and the lines that I cannot cross.

I promise I’ll never keep anything from you.

There are still things we have yet to find out about each other. We both have our secrets - those hiding in the deepest, most secluded corners of our hearts. Time, however, has taught us that they eventually come out on their own, wanting - longing to reveal themselves.

I promise I’ll never make you cry.

And I thought you never would. But love is a bittersweet thing, and loving you, even more so. We’ve fought countless times and cried just as many yet we’ve always found ways to make it work. Pride? There is no such thing when it comes to us.

I promise to stay.

There were times I stood on the edge, peering down at what my life would be like without you. I was tempted to jump off; to live the way it was before we met. But then I realized how wrong I was to even think of such a thing. I’d lose a great part of myself if I let that happen - the part that you and I shared. So I’ll stay a little longer, not only for you, but for me as well.

…

Isn’t it a wonder how we never seem to keep our promises? Yet you and I both know that we’ve made plenty. You see, we have this tendency to over-expect - to overestimate the things we’re capable of.

But I find it beautiful how we don’t fulfill these promises of ours. It shows me just how human we are, and how human we are together. These moments of compromise, of give-and-take, and of making it work are those that really test the love that I feel towards you. But my feelings have not changed since the time I became sure that I’d love you for the rest of my life.

Literary (Submission): Mamahalin Kita



Noon iniisip ko, kapag naging tayo, aalagaan kita. Pagsisilbihan kita hanggang sa tumanda tayo at maubos na ang itim ng mga buhok natin. Ako ang magiging katuwang mo sa lahat ng bagay at sa lahat ng pagkakataon. Ako ang magbibigay ngiti sa iyo tuwing iniisip mong wala nang ikasasaya pa ang buhay mo. At higit sa lahat, mamahalin kita.

"Wag mong basahin! Ano ka ba!"

Kahit ayaw ko, papayag akong ipunas mo sa bago kong damit ang mga luha mong dala ng mga problemang pinapasan mo. Kahit nakakahiya, handa akong pagtawanan ng ibang tao marinig ko lamang ang tawa mong mas malakas lang ng konti sa bulong. Kahit na masakit sa ulo, pakikinggan ko pa rin ang boses mo habang kumakanta ka ng Stupid Love sa videoke. At kahit marami pang kailangang tiisin, mamahalin pa rin kita.

"Huy! Akin na 'yan!"

Ipakikita ko sa iyo ang halimbawa ng isang magandang hinaharap. Iparirinig ko sa iyo ang awit ng puso kong "ikaw" lamang ang sinasambit. Ipararamdam ko sa iyo ang haplos ng hanging dala ang aking mga yakap at halik. At titiyakin kong magagawa ko ito pagka't mamahalin kita.

"Hala, ang kulit!"

Noon, ang mga pangakong ito ay hanggang isip ko lamang. At ang "tayo" ay hanggang "kapag" lang. Ngayon, ang mga pangakong ito'y hindi na magtatago pa at manggugulo pa sa isip ko. Dahil ngayon, ang "kapag" ay naging "sa wakas" na rin. At ang mga pangako kong ito ay hindi na magiging basta pangako pagka't nakita at nasa piling ko na ang "ikaw" na siyang awit ng puso ko.

"Hintayin mo na lang sa pub!"

Hoy ikaw! Kahit na ang kulit-kulit mo ngayon sa tabi ko at nagpupumilit kang basahin ang mga pangako kong ito, ayos lang. Kahit na halos mapunit na ang papel na pinagsusulatan ko, ayos lang. Hindi ako mapapagod at magsasawa dahil mahal kita. Mamahalin kita hanggang sa mamanhid ang nguso ko kauulit ng mga salitang ito. At kahit masakit na ang kamay ko sa pagsulat nito, sa di pa huling pagkakatao'y inuulit ko sayo...

Mamahalin kita.

Literary (Submission): My Dear



For years, I felt isolated and morose, like a weeping tree amidst meadows. I got used to this kind of routine everyday, trying to hide and conceal the pain away. Never in my whole life have I met a man who can bring me to Neverland like Peter Pan. Ever since I caught sight of him, I began to feel that I’m in an endless dream. I didn’t realize I have been shot by Eros’s arrow, indicating a promise that I’ll never let him go.

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Not a single day comes that I don’t think of her—a woman who seemed to be life’s greatest offer. I saw the lights shimmer in her eyes as I turned her sordid life into paradise. Memories shared were filled with joy and laughter. I promised myself that she would be my happily ever after.

After a few years of going strong and steady, I said to myself that I am now ready. I’ve always wanted you to stay the same but I think it would be better if I change your name. So as I talked to you early in the morning, I asked if you would mind taking my company later in the evening. I carefully studied your reaction as I waited. And at last, a promise came, saying that you won’t be late.

During the last hours of preparation, the moon finally came together with the stars that spell out your name. I took a rest and waited patiently as the wind sang to me a perfect harmony. Never did I expect that a knock on the door could mean so much more. I gently opened it with a smile forming, as I see you in a simple white dress as if ready for our wedding. All night long we tried to capture each moment until I realized that it’s time for the final event. I swore to myself that I won’t allow anything that might stop us from saying our vows. But as I hold the ring that will start it all, I received an unexpected call. I answered it as I recognized the number; the call was coming from your mother. She has not yet finished her story as I looked at your face saying sorry. A smile followed by a drop of tear, is my last memory of you, my dear.

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Elation was what I have always felt. Even after asking me out, you still make my knees melt. But tonight… tonight would be so much different because I promised to love you in the past, future, and present. I took a while to pick a red dress from the pile. All day long I was thinking of you—how you are everything that I wanted, how our undying love for each other is in my heart, embedded.

 I collected my things and went straight to the car. I felt an ache in my heart and suddenly the door seemed too far. I tried so hard to ignore the pain but my eyesight started to wane. I can feel Death standing by my side, silently watching as I sense my consciousness slowly fading. A promise made a long time ago, haunts me in the form of a tear. So I swore to myself that I would come for you, my dear.

Literary (Submission): Broken Waltz



Before I held your hand, I asked you to:
"Dance with me and turn my frown upside down;
Dance with me until I feel at ease;
Dance with me, make me feel safe."

As your hand held mine, you promised:
"I'll dance with you for as long as I can;
I'll dance with you to make you feel my love;
I'll dance with you and never leave your side."

As we moved closer, the first notes played,
Bringing a different beat to our hearts;
Filling the air with a colorful melody;
Providing harmony to every step we make.

For the first eights, carefully, we both danced;
Waltzing our way into each other's hearts.
Every sway was perfect and synchronized;
Everything polished as the last eights passed.

We promised each other another dance
A chance to correct all the things that went wrong;
Another dance to mend our wounds and scars;
A risk we tried not to be afraid of.

Little did we know that would be our last dance;
No matter how many tries, I fall out of balance;
You tried to catch me the way you promised;
But still, I stumbled and left you behind.

It's better to exit the stage and find our separate ways
To not get trapped in the dance floor of our promises.
Now, the audience stand and leave, the lights dim down;
The curtains close, finally ending the show.

Literary (Submission): Hamartia




I’ve despised such display
Of affections before
But the time came when I wondered
“Is this feeling fun to explore?”

I admit I have fallen
For someone close to my ideal mate
Sadly, it was a total failure
My heart was in such a horrid state

Never again did I try
To act on such emotion
I just make it a laughing matter
To take it seriously was not anymore an option

So why do I feel confused right now
Once again I don’t know what to do
I mess up every time at everything
Whenever I’m with you

Back then I also tried to show
My true feelings which you have misconstrued
Yet all my efforts finally paid off
The moment you said, “I love you, too.”

Literary: Please, Promise Me




Promise me you’ll read from start to end, because these words may be my last for you.

Promise me you’lltake the path to wherever your heart leads you. Follow what your heart desires, what you love. Be with the person you chose even when there are others vying for your hand.

Promise me you’ll be happy. Don’t let your smile fall to a frown. Make sure that your heart is full and filled with glee in choosing the man you wanted to be with.

Promise me you’ll stay the same. My leaving wouldn’t really leave a mark so I hope you’ll never change. Keep being the person who brought the color back to my life, the person I loved unrequitedly.

Promise me you’llforget. Incinerate every memory of me down to a pile of ashes. Throw away the words and let it burn down. They were true, you never knew, but I guess there’s nothing I can do.

Promise me you’ll never think about me. I will not interfere with your happiness. If the tides turn upon us, don’t mind. Act like I don’t matter because I know I never really did.

Promise me you’ll help me let go. Give me a reason to give up on you. I love you, but I guess it’s too late to say, especially now that someone makes your heart beat differently from its former way.

And I promise not to bother you anymore. It may be hard, but the pain, I have to ignore. Loving you was good while it lasted, even though it was just one-sided.

Literary: Limot




Nang makita kang palakad-lakad sa lansangan
Agad kitang pinuntahan

Niyakap kita ng mahigpit at sinabing:

"Hindi ba’t pinangako mo sa akin na hindi mo ako iiwan?
Bakit sa lahat ng iyong pangako ay iyon pa ang iyong kinalimutan.
Hinahanap kita sa bawat sulok ng lungsod,
Pati ang bawat baryo, barangay, at pook ay sinuyod
Upang matagpuan ka't ipaalala sa iyo
Ang pangakong binitawan mo."

Ika'y tumingin sa akin ng may pagtataka’t pag-aalinlangan
Tumatalilisang mga butil ng pawis sa iyong nakakunot n anoo
Huminga ka ng malalim at dahan-dahang lumabas ito sa iyongbibig:

"Patawad at wala akong matandaan
Na ako'y nangakong hindi kitaiiwan at pababayaan
Ang alam ko lamang ay ako'y naligtas mula sa kamatayan
At ngayon ay nabubuhay ng walang nalalaman."

Literary: An Ode to Your Promises




When this poem
Finally comes to an end

I’d be tearing down the pictures
Of all the places we’ve been to
I’d be burning them
Together with the hopes and dreams I had for us two

I’d be emptying the crate
Of all the movies
And music
We’ve shared with each other

Piling them out, one by one
Stacking them neatly into parcels
To be sold later
In the cheapest, lowest prices

You see, I have been holding on
To the promise of you for so long
That I’ve amassed quite a collection
Of reminiscences I have of you

And you must also see
That I’ve clung to the promise
Of you coming home soon
Longer than I probably should have

So I guess it is only right
I heal myself at last
Of all the mournful colors
You’ve inflicted upon me

It is only right
I make you a promise
And keep it just as how
You refused to keep yours

Now as I leave with a clean slate
Heed this vow:
I will not be
Coming back to you.

Literary: Masasanay



Mahal kita kaya
Sanay na ako na

Kapag sa umaga’y gigising
Ginawang unang nararamdaman
Kahit anong suotin
Ako’y giginawin pa rin

Sa pag-alis ng bahay kasabay ng pagsikat ng araw
Nadarama ko ang init ng sinag nito
Habang naglalakad sa daan
Nasisilaw ang mga mata ko

Sa tuwing biglang uulan
Tutuloy pa rin kahit walang masilungan
Kahit na mabigat sa paa
Ang sapatos na basang basa

Dahil

Noong ikaw ay nakilala ko
Nagsimula na akong mangako
Na titiisin ko at sasanayin ko ang sarili sa ganito
Basta kasama ko ikaw na pinakamamahal ko

Pero ngayon

Kapag gabi na kung ako’y umuwi
Nilalamig ang pusoko
Dahil sa kalungkutang dulot mo
At kahit anong suotin, ako’y nilalamig pa rin

Sa pag-uwi ng bahay sabay sa pagliwanag ng buwan
Ako’y natatakot dahil mag-isa na lamang
Nakatayo sa gitna ng madilim na daan
Walang kamay na mahawakan

At kahit walang ulan
Tila pagod at basang basa pa rin
Ramdam din ang bigat ng aking mga paa
At ng aking pusong durog na

Dahil

Simula noong umalis ka
Nangako akong muli
Na lahat ay gagawin
Makalimutan lang ng puso ko na minahal kita

At pangako
Masasanay rin ako

Literary: Promises




My mother has
Taught me
That promises
Are meant
To be broken;
That even pinky swears,
And swear-to-hearts
Are not concrete assurances.

And you
Breaking each
And every one of it
Made me realize
All the lies
Within your eyes;
That promises
Aren’t just
Meant to be broken
But are also
Meant to hurt.

Literary: Hay Nako



Bakit ka pa nangako
Kung di ka naman seryoso?
Bakit ka nagbibitiw ng mga salitang
Nauuwi rin sa wala?

Paasa ka.

Ang mahirap sa’yo
Sa umpisa ka lang nasa tono,
Habang tumatagal nasisintunado,
Pero magpapanggap na matino.

Sa susunod iwasan mo
Ang pagbibigay ng mga salita,
Na di mo kayang panindigan
Para di mo masira,
Ang ibinigay sa iyong tiwala.

Literary: Kahit Na


Ipinapangako kong:

1.Sasabihin ko araw-araw kung gaano ka kaganda kahit na may muta ka pa sa mata tuwing umaga.

2.Sasabayan kitang kumain ng kahit na anong gusto mo at hindi kita pipigilan kahit na sukat pa ng bewang mo'y umabot hanggang kuwarenta.

3.Lagi kitang kakamustahin kahit na kabisado ko na lahat ng ginagawa mo mula paggising, pagpasok, pag-uwi at pagtulog.

4.Ihahatid kita lagi sa bahay niyo kahit ang distanya ng bahay ko sainyo ay wala pang kalahating kilometro.

5.Papagpasensyahan ko iyang mood swings mo kahit na pinabibili mo ako ng napkin sa tindahan nila Mang Procopio sa may kabilang kanto.

6.Susuportahan ko lahat ng gagawin mo kahit na puntahan ko pa lahat ng gigs, shows at gimik ng ukulele band nyo na isang kanta lang ang alam na tugtugin.

7.Kakainin ko lahat ng iluluto mo kahit na masukasuka ako sa sinigang mong lasang adobo.

8.Hihintayin kitang matapos sa lahat ng ginagawa mo kahit na abutin ako ng alas tres kahihintay sa mga ipapaprint mo.

9.Bibilhan kita ng kape, 3 in 1 man o Starbucks, kapag inaantok ka na tuwing klase ng Algebra.

10.Tutuparin kong lahat ito hanggang sa ika'y mahulog sa akin. At pagdumating ang panahong iyon, aking sasambiting na ika'y kaibigan lamang para sa akin.

Literary: Routine




I have been trying not to look as aged as I actually am.

For approximately 3,550 days, I had my usual patched-up fashion. I would hide my unkempt hair under my Yankees baseball cap, along with a thin leather jacket and a pair of brown jeans, just as I did on the very first 3rd of February 1990.

Every single day had the usual routine. I would take her out to lunch at Denny's, where she'd always order her cream soda. I, however, would change between sandwiches, and tell her how the other flavors differed from the ones I previously had.

Although, other tiny things did deviate from the tedious loop of eventssuch as when I’d suddenly break out and cry from time to time, knowing how I'd lose her again, just as I did on the previous February 3rds of 1990.

I would love to quit and end all of this nonsense.

But I promised.

"I'd never let anything happen to you."

When the day reaches 4:40pm, I make sure to tell her everything; that, in a few moments, the cosmic power of the universe would take her away from me once more. It didn’t matter what way it happened. As long as the variable of time is present, the universe would act upon it as if to remind our obsolescence.

And I have watched her disappear from the face of the earth in 3,500 ways.

Within that span, time had been ever-changing on the current reality since that third of February. As much as it tries, until this repetitive day is put to its final end, the future is at buffer. Despite my gift, even I am not the omnipotent. I could only go back for a day, at most with my abilities. Naturally I chose this power to relive this particular date, the very same February 3rd as it had been every single day for 10 the past years.

But alas, there are promises that can't be kept.

For today, I will put on my usual patched up fashion, take her to Denny's, and order a chicken sandwich.

This time, I won't tell her about her time remaining.

This time, the world will not succumb to my selfish wishes.

And tomorrow will be the Fourth of February, 1990.

Literary: Tanging Pangako


Hindi ako mangangakong aabutin ang mga bituin para sa’yo,
Dahil napakaimposible noon at malayong maging totoo.

Hindi rin ako mangangakong sisisirin ang kailaliman ng Antartika,
‘Pagkat alam kong nakakapagod iyon at di ko kaya.

Hindi mangangakong lilipad kasama ang mga ibon,
Dahil wala akong sapat na abilidad para gawin iyon.

Hindi mangangakong gagawing araw ang gabi,
Dahil hindi ako makapangyarihan para iyon ay masabi.

Huli, hinding hindi ko rin maipapangako
Na kaya kong palitan ang “siya” ng “ako” sa puso mo.

Pero kahit ganoon…

Isa lang ang maipapangako at masisiguro ko,
At iyon ay ikaw lang ang laman at tanging tinitibok nitong aking puso.

Literary: Of Broken Promises




Promises are meant to be broken…

When she promises to remember
But she only forgets

When he promises to forgive
But he only regrets

When they promise to be kind
But they hurt you everyday

When we promised an “us”
But we did not choose to stay

When you promised to hold on
But you never even tried

When I promised to forget you…

But then I know I lied

Literary: To The Girl I Promised Forever



Sorry and thank you.
It has been months since we last talked, but I just want to say sorry for the heartache I caused. I took you for granted and didn't give you the love you deserve, the love I can never give. Yet you still chose to stay by my side even though everything we had was falling apart. You tried to save us, blamed yourself even. I admit, it's all my fault. I gave up. I didn't even give us a second chance. It is a decision I regret.

But a promise is a promise.
Everything may be different now, but I will be true to my word. Even if the forever I promised you didn't work out, it doesn't mean it's not existent. I will be always here for you.
This time, I won't give up. I'll find a way for you to find forever, even if it's in someone else's company.

I promise I'll make it up to you. Whatever it takes just for you to believe again in destiny, I'll do… for our promises are the only remaining memory of our once happy story.

I won't mess up this time.

Pinky promise.

Literary: Hindi na Ako Mangangakong Muli


Pangako kong hindi na akong mangangakong muli
Pangako sapagkat alam naman nating dal'wa na huli
Huli na ang lahat sa atin
Bakit pa paglalabanin
Ang mga damdamin
Nating salungat
Ano pang ginagawa natin
Hindi rin naman natin inaamin
Ang sigaw ng ating mga damdamin
Kaya pangako ko sa’yo
Hindi na ako babalik
Hindi na kita iisiping muli
Kasi mahal
Kita
Hindi ko rin inaakala
Pero mahal
Kita
Inakala kong paghanga lamang
Kaso mahal pala kita
At kahit hindi ko na kinakaya ang sakit
Mahal pa rin kita
Kahit mayroon ka ngiba
Kahit mayroon ka nang iba
Kahit tila kaibigan lamang ang tingin mo sa'kin
Di mo nalalamang masakit sa damdamin
Kasi hindi ko man lang maamin
Dahil natatakot ako
Mahal kita pero di ko masabi
Di ko masabi sa akin o sa’yo
Hindi ko matanggap sa sarili ko
Na ang babaeng minsa'y nakikita ko lamang na napapadaan-daan
Ay ngayo'yaraw-araw at gabi-gabi nang tumatakbo sa'king isipan
Kaya napapatanong na lamang ako
Bakit pa kasi ako nahulog sa’yo?
Nasaktan na ako dati pero bakit hindi pa rin ako natututo?
Bakit pa ako nagpakilala?
At bakit ngayo'y mukha akong tangang nangangako.
Kaya pangako
Hindi na ako mangangakong muli
Kasi hindi rin naman magtatagal
Iisipin rin kita balangaraw,
At siguro’y muling mapapamahal sa’yo
Kung dumating man ang panahong iyon
Ang masasabi ko na lang para doon
Ay hindi na ako mangangako
Kaya pangako
Hindi na ako mangangakong muli
Kasi hindi rin naman nagtatagal
Kahit gaano pa kapait ang ating kinahinatnan
At kahihinatnan
Ikaw pa rin ang aking mahal

Literary: Napagtanto



Naalala ko noong
Magkausap tayo
At binigyan mo ako ng rosas
“Pang-iyo yan,” sabi mo.
Sabi ko, “Ano?”
“Para sa’yo.”

Naalala ko noong
Magkita tayo
At may dala kang pagkaing pagsasaluhan
“Pang-atin,” ang sabi mo.
At sabi ko, “Ano?”
“Para sa atin.”

Naalala ko noong
Magkasama tayo
At tinanong kita
Kung gagawin mo ba ang lahat para sa atin
Sabi mo, “Oo naman.”
“Talaga?”
“Pangako.”

Ilang taon na ang nakalipas
Magmula nang maghiwalay tayo
At
Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na
Ang ibig mo palang sabihin ay
“Pang-ako.”

Literary: Pangako Sa'yo



Pangako, simula sa araw na ito hindi ka na mag-iisa
Nandirito na ako sa tabi mo upang samahan ka
Buong araw hanggang gabi
Asahan mo ako sa iyong tabi

Pangako, di ka na malulumbay
Dahil kasama mo na ako sa iyong buhay
Mula sa paaralan hanggang sa iyong tahanan
Ikaw ay mayroong maaasahan

Pangako, hindi kita patutulugin
Sapagkat pag kasama mo ako, di ka aantukin
Pangako, ikaw ay papayat
Dahil kapag tayo’y magkasama tiyak ika’y mapupuyat

Pangako, gagawin ko ang lahat upang ika’y mapasaya
Tutulungan kita sa aking buong makakaya
Marahil hindi ko pa alam kung sa paanong paraan
Basta magtiwala ka; iyon aking kailangan

Literary (Submission): Aasa Ba Ko Sa'yo?



"Uuuuy, malapit na prom!!! Kinakabahan na ako. Baka kasi hindi maging masaya yung gabi niya. Baka ako pa maging dahilan non."

"Ano ka ba! Hindi naman mag-yes 'yon kung alam niyang hindi siya magiging masayang kasama ka eh."

"Sa bagay. Pero huwag mo kalimutan ha, isasayaw kita!"

"Basta huwag ikaw ang makalimot. Baka kasi masyado kang mag-enjoy kasi natupad na yung wish mong makadate siya sa prom."

"Hindi naman siguro. Basta sa paborito mong kanta ha? Isasayaw kita!"

"Oo naman, ikaw pa!"

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Ilang araw na ang lumipas, hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang prom. Una at huling beses ko kasing umattend ng prom dahil hindi ako pinayagan last year. May kailangang kailangan kaming puntahan. Noon lang ako naghanda at nag-ayos para sa ganoong pormal na okasyon. Hindi naman kasi ako palaayos. Basta komportable ang damit at nakapagsuklay, ayos na.

Grabe, masaya palang mag prom! Kahit walang date, okay lang! Masarap naman kasing kumain nang kumain at marami naman akong kasamang kaibigan sa table. Pero sa puntong iyan, hindi pa tapos ang gabi kaya hindi ko sigurado kung hanggang matapos ang prom, masaya pa rin ako.

Noong gabing iyon, nakita ko kung paano ka magkagusto sa isang tao. Doon kita tunay na nakilala. Hindi ko akalaing gentleman ka pala! Panay side comment at pangungulit lang naman kasi ang madalas mong gawin sa klase. Nakaalalay ka kahit saan siya magpunta. Sa bagay, mahirap na. Sa haba ba naman ng damit at sa taas ng heels niya, imposibleng hindi ito matapakan ng iba. Baka mapatid pa siya. Pero nasa tamang edad naman na siya, kaya na niya ang sarili niya!

At kita mo nga naman 'o! Marunong ka palang maging sincere at seryoso. Grabe naman kasi kung paano mo siya titigan, parang wala kang ibang kasama sa table. Kahit nga habang kumakain siya, hindi mo pinalampas. Helllooooo! *kaway kaway* Andito pa kaming friends mo oh! Pwede mo rin naman kaming kausapin.

Sa wakas, oras na ng sayawan. Tapos na ang first dance… second dance… third… at ilan pang mga kanta ang dumaan.

Napagtanto kong gusto mo talaga siya. Parang dinadala mo ang buong mundo sa tuwing yayayain siyang sumayaw ng iba. "Oo, ikaw nga ang date ko pero parang hindi rin. Ang dami kong kaagaw sa'yo." Ganyan ang sinasabi ng mga mata mo. Hay. Pero alam mo naman kasing beauty queen ang datingan ng date mo. Halos nasa kanya na ang lahat.

Lumilipas na ang gabi. Nakakailang sayaw na rin ako. Nakakailang beses ka na ring nakaupo habang pinapanood siyang sumayaw kasama ang iba.

Tumugtog na ang paborito kong kanta! Ayan, naghintay na akong magyaya ka. Pero bakit ganoon? Siya ang niyaya mo. Sa isip ko naman, "Ay teka! Baka yung isang kanta yung alam niyang paborito ko!"

Naghintay ulit ako. Umasa. Naghintay nang naghintay. Umasa pa rin. Naghintay… naghintay… Tumugtog na yata halos lahat ng gusto kong kanta, wala pa rin. Minsan, nakikita lang naman kitang nakatulala, wala ka namang kasayaw. Siguro may kasayaw na naman siya. Pero umaasa pa rin akong hindi mo nakalimutan.

Naisayaw ko na halos lahat ng kaibigan ko. Pero wala pa rin. May iba pang nagyaya, naisayaw ko na rin. Yung totoo, ano ang alam mong paborito kong kanta? Hinayaan ko na lang. Mukhang nawala ka na yata sa mood.

Lahat ng inaasahan kong mangyari sa gabing iyon, hindi ko akalaing magkakatotoo.

Siyempre, natapos ang gabi nang hindi mo ako naisayaw. Hindi ko alam kung masyadong okupado ang isip mo noon o nakalimutan mo lang talaga. Baka naman hinintay mong ako pa ang magyaya sa'yo? Naku, sorry! Sabi mo isasayaw mo ako, kaya hinintay lang kita. O baka naman ayaw mo lang talaga? Pero kung ganoon, sana hindi mo na lang sinabi na isasayaw mo ako kasi inasahan ko na. Wala rin naman palang mangyayari.

Oo, mababaw na dahilan pero sa'yo kasi nanggaling. At naging mahalaga kasi mahalaga ka. Ayos lang. Kahit nakalimutan mo, kahit hindi ka na mag-sorry, okay lang. Hindi naman na 'yon mauulit kasi nga last na.

At sanay na rin naman akong umasa sa wala.
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