english,
Literary: Three Years, Three Words
For almost three
years I’ve been going back to a single memory, one that I could never reminisce
with anyone about. Except with you.
That point in time
was perfect, like a scene from a movie. At the center of a darkened field
surrounded by looming trees with laughing students hiding behind the trunks,
our silhouettes were facing each other. You asked me what it was that I wanted
to say but the tone of your voice hinted that you already knew. With my heart pounding in my ear, I told you
three words.
Afterwards, I ran
to my best friend and cried. I don’t think you noticed.
I carried on after
that with you being the only structure I had at the moment. But even that you
broke down as you left. It was foolish of me to think that saying I love you
would make you stay. Those words are heavy but never heavy enough to keep
anyone from leaving.
It didn’t seem like
you felt anything close to love towards me considering you left for someone
else. It didn’t take you a long time to act like it never happened. For three
years, you’ve been avoiding me. Trying not to ask anything from me as much as possible,
not even looking me in the eye when you talk to me. It was pathetic of you. Or
was that your way of being guilty?
What were you supposed
to be guilty of anyway? We were both just lying to each other, weren’t we?
It was fun while it
lasted, whatever it was that we were three years ago, but all I really want is
to be at peace. All I really want is to believe it never happened too.
So I’m letting it
go.
I loved the kind
things you told me to cheer me up. I loved the silence that hugs us when we’re
out of things to say. I loved the plans you made for us that we never got to
do. But what I never really loved was you. / by Morpheus
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