Literary: The Curiosity Shop of Miss Adelaide Bell




Somewhere in between
Heaven and Hell
You will find the quaint little shop
Of Miss Adelaide Bell

“Adelaide Bell’s Curiosity Shop”
I heard some people saying
And many souls, lost and wandering
Often came ‘round buying

You see, this shop is none
Like any other
For Miss Bell only sells
Every type of magic and every superpower

Telekinesis, immortality
Clairvoyance, invisibility
You name it and Miss Bell
Surely will have it ready

As many people get what they wanted
They would also have to pay a price
And for darling Miss Adelaide Bell
That would be: a piece of their lives

She would ask for the love in your heart
Or the happiness you can bring
She’ll demand for the sentiment
Behind a wedding ring

You’ll never feel it
As she takes away a talent or a memory
And when you sign the contract
You’re bound by eternity

Miss Adelaide Bell stands by her products
Indeed you will gain power
But you cannot take back
Anything you gave her

One fine winter solstice
Old man Chaos comes a-running
Into the Curiosity Shop
And asks Miss Bell for something

“Why, that’s rather unusual,”
Proclaimed the dealer.
“But I’ll see what I can do,
Be back here next summer.”

As Miss Bell toiled
For days and nights
For old man Chaos’s request
She was stuck in such a plight

The man came back
At the longest day of the year
And asked Miss Bell
The price for the peddler’s yield

“You don’t have to pay me anything,”
Said Miss Adelaide Bell.
“But you must promise me
Use your power often and well.”

You see, old man Chaos was tired
Ruining one thing after another
It’s getting weary over time
And he longed for slumber

He asked Miss Bell
For something that could do his job
Something small he could carry around
And pet and spoil and feed and lob

So Miss Bell gave him a butterfly
Inside a glass jar, frozen and paralyzed
Wonderfully designed, elegantly made
And Miss Bell instructed:

“Open the jar and breathe into the butterfly
And it will do the rest.”

And a contract bound
Chaos and Adelaide
The man came out of the shop
Happy and satisfied

When he came home,
A dark cloud on top of the world
He opened the jar
And did as he was told

The butterfly came to life
Gave its wings their first flutter
And Chaos heard
One thunder after another

He smiled, for now he could rest
With every flutter of the insect comes
A cataclysmic event occurs
Every being could feel the effect

As the old man slept
Strong storm winds knocked the jar over
And the butterfly escaped
And then flew afar then further and further

Chaos came back to Adelaide
To ask for amelioration
And the woman only gave him a laugh
Thus the man was confused from the derision

“I didn’t make you pay
Because now I get more lives than I ever had
More happiness surrendered
And more sentiment in my cache.

“You, old man, gave me a steady supply
Of things that would keep me alive
For the next hundred eons
As the people on Earth die.”

The old man wept
For he was bound by his word
And promised to look for the butterfly
So he went back to Earth

But all he saw were disasters
Islands splitting in half
Empires falling, diseases spreading
Dictators ruling and volcanoes acting up

What was then controlled madness
Now runs rampant on the streets
As Chaos continues to look for his insect
Its effect all but discreet

The Curiosity Shop
Is still run by Miss Adelaide Bell
But has now expanded her business
All throughout hell

Literary: Sa Aking Pagbagsak




Hindi ko malilimutan ang araw na iyon. Ika-22 ng Hunyo, alas-diyes ng umaga. Iniabot ng Homeroom teacher ko ang aking stub. Todo-nginig ang aking mga kamay, nanlalamig, namamawis, puso’y tila kakabog palabas mula sa aking dibdib. Binuklat ko ang parisukat na papel at tumambad sa ’king mga mata ang aking mga marka.

Puso ko’y tila tumigil sa pagtibok,
Hindi ako makahinga.
Tuliro at blangko ang isip,
Paligid ko’y tila biglang tumahimik.

“Ano’ng nangyayari sa ’kin?”
Naitanong ko sa aking sarili.
Kaunti lang naman ang ibinaba ng grado ko,
Kaya binalewala ko muna at nagpatuloy.

Dumaan ang mga araw,
Umaga’t gabi ay di naramdamang lumipas.
Ilang oras na rin akong tulala,
Walang maisip at walang maramdaman.

Laging nagmumuni-muni sa ’king silid,
Isipan ko’y gulong-gulo.
Buong araw walang kausap,
Sinukuan na yata ako ng lahat.

Pumunta ako sa doktor at binigyan niya ako ng gamot,
Inumin ko raw, baka sakaling makatulong.
Sinunod ko naman ang kaniyang payo,
Ngunit bakit tila wala pa ring nagbago?

Kailan ba matatapos ang kadilimang ito?
Paano iaahon ang sarili sa dagat ng kawalan?
Masisilayan ko bang muli ang liwanag?
O, sa huli, ako’y lulubog at malulunod din naman?

Kung alam ko lang na sa ganito hahantong,
Naagapan na sana habang maaga pa.
Di sana binalewala ang kirot na minsang naramdaman,
Na ngayo’y naging dilim na kumokonsumo sa aking kabuuan.

Kirot na dala ng mababang grado sa iisang asignatura,
Tuluyan nang nilamon ang aking pagkatao mula ulo hanggang paa.
Mama, Papa, ‘wag ninyo akong alalahanin,
Ito na ang huling beses na kayo’y aking bibiguin.

Pasensiya na kung sa inyo’y di nabanggit noong una pa lamang,
Na hirap na akong panatilihin ang ulo sa ibabaw ng tubig.
Pasensiya na kung ang pintuan ko’y hindi binubuksan,
Sa bawat pagkakataon na kayo’y kakatok sa kabilang banda.

Maraming salamat sa laging pagpapaalala,
Na ang pagkatao ko’y hindi naibabase sa mga numero.
Maraming salamat sa pag-abot ng inyong mga kamay,
Na muli akong itinayo mula sa aking pagbagsak.

Literary: Downhill (I'm Sorry)




In the midst of the dissonance, the storm and the chaos, I try to find peace.

Everything feels suffocating, there are walls pressing in and incoherent noises.

It’s all my fault, isn’t it?

She was there. Warm, comforting, constant. A refuge. A safe haven from the turbulence.

She was there, at the right time, in the right place. She was bright when my light had turned dim. She was warm when the love I shared with another girl turned cold.

I didn’t mean to.

Things spiraled down. The girl who was my sunshine now feels like a cold breeze at night. We smiled and we sat close, but when I glanced at her – she seemed so much closer, so much warmer, unlike the one actually beside me. I looked away.

Further down. I had so much free time. Time to think. Time to wallow in the darkness of my horrible thoughts. All this time away from the girl who felt like home made me feel lost. The distance seemed more than physical, and I didn’t know what to do. But she was there. We met halfway and found a safe space between each other. I thought maybe she was the blanket who’d comfort me when I was away from home, but this one seemed so much more comfortable than home. I didn’t know what to feel.

Even further down. I can’t look at the eyes I used to be drawn by so much. Sweet words from her tasted bland, but for her – for her, even the most trivial and ordinary of words sounded special. This feeling shouldn’t be shared with her. I feel like suffocating whenever I see the smile I loved so much. I feel like dying whenever I see it genuinely directed at me. I don’t have the right to make her smile like that anymore. I don’t have the right to have her smile at me like that anymore, as if things were healing, as if things were getting better between us. It’s not.

Would have all of this happened if there hadn’t been someone in our time of turbulence? Would we have healed and not let things happen? Would she still have felt like home if I hadn’t met her?

Chaos. Storms. Dissonance. There’s salt in my eyes and bitterness on my tongue. Guilt. Despair. Hate. Was this her fault for being there at the right time and at the right place, or was it my fault for letting it all happen?

Down. Down. Down. I can’t get any lower than this. I look at her properly for the first time in weeks. She’s right to look back at me with apprehension. She anticipated it, but her walls still broke. I broke it. The flimsy handkerchief I try to offer her is a disgustingly useless attempt at an apology. She doesn’t accept it.

Guilt. Fear. Relief. I turn around with a final apology and head back to my new home. To the one whose brightness outshone what used to be my sunshine. To the one whose warmth now envelops me in an attempt to relieve the guilt eating me alive. A whispered “I’m sorry” reaches my ears. I shake my head with a

“No, I’m sorry” and a faint smile as I turn to look at her.

Literary: Bagsak




Tandang-tanda ko pa, unang araw ng pasukan noon. Umaga pa lang ay nakapila na ang lahat para sa gaganaping flag ceremony. Tirik na tirik ang sikat ng araw, napakainit at di mapigil ang pagbagsak ng butil-butil na pawis mula sa noo ng bawat isa.

Naaalala ko pa, lingon ako nang lingon kung saan-saan dahil iyon ang unang araw ko sa eskuwelahang ito. Bago ang lahat sa aking paningin, mula sa tao, mukha, lugar, at iba pa. Ngunit pilit kong sinasanay ang aking sarili. Naghanda na ako sa bagong pagsubok na aking haharapin: ang unang araw ko bilang isang senior high school sa paaralang ito.

Iritang-irita ako dahil hindi ko naman ginustong mag-aral dito. Hindi ko naman ito plinano ngunit kailangan kong masanay na ito na ang magiging pangalawang tahanan ko.

Natagalan akong hanapin ang nakatakdang silid-aralan. 11-MH Del Pilar ang grado at seksyon na nakalagay sa ibinigay sa akin na iskedyul. Nalito ako kahahanap dahil tila napakalaki ng paaralan na ito para sa isang estudyanteng kagaya ko.

Hindi nagtagal ay nakita ko na ang Room 404. Agad-agad akong napatakbo dahil ito na ang hinahanap kong silid-aralan! Sa wakas! Nakita ko na! Sinikap kong humabol para maabutan itong bukas habang wala pa ang guro namin nang biglang…

“BLAAAAAAAAAG!”

Bumagal ang oras, kitang-kita ko ang dahang-dahang paggalaw ng buhok, pagpikit ng mata, at ang malakas na pagbagsak niya sa sahig. Nagkalat ang kaniyang mga libro, bolpen, at mga gamit sa sahig.

“Ayos ka lang ba?” tanong ko sabay abot ng kamay ko upang tulungan siya.

“A, oo. Pasensya ka na, di kita napansin. Sorry.”

Pinulot niya ang kaniyang mga gamit at agad-agad na pumasok sa silid-aralan na parang walang nangyari.

Natumba siya at nahulog ang bag niya, libro niya, at mga gamit niya.

Samantalang ang damdamin ko naman ang nahulog sa kaniya.

Napadilat ako mula sa pag-alala ng nakaraan at napalingat sa babaeng hinihintay ko ngayon sa altar.

“Let us all welcome, our soon to be husband and wife, Mr. Jeffrey Dantes and Ms. Genina Cruz!”

Unti-unti akong napangiti nang iluwa ng pintuan ng simbahan ang isang napakagandang anghel na ibinigay ng langit sa akin. Dahan-dahan siyang naglakad nang nakangiti habang nakakapit sa braso ng kaniyang ama papunta sa akin.

Siguro, hindi na rin masama ang napakainit at nakayayamot na araw na iyon. Dahil sa araw na iyon, noon ko nakilala ang babaeng pakakasalan ko ngayon.

Literary: The Bug Precept




Once said a foolish man who thought
      He was so very smart:
If you upon a small bug trod,
      The end-times you will start

This Poincaré and Lorenz heard
      And made their guiding lines;
They swore an oath to watch the earth
      And sweep it like a Jain

On this they held no compromise,
      Whate’er the air might be;
They’d let the sheep meet its demise,
      On Sabbath willingly

One day they found their brooms were gone,
      And all their food as well;
They needed to the store anon,
      But how without bug-knells?

They thought on this quite long and hard,
      What were the two to do?

A trick was found aft’ ponderance
      To solve their current woe:
‘If we instead of treading, prance,
      We won’t upon bugs—’ ‘No!

We cannot take a chance like that
      Risking bugs underfoot;
Instead the two decided that
      Their aim might rolling suit

For this cle’er scheme they themselves praised
      For brilliant it was so;
To the store the two rolled and raced,
      Excited shouting, ‘who-oa!’

Some time thence they thither made it,
      Granting them food and broom;
With that they thought they’d fly and flit,
      A-cackling in the room

 Content they were with what they had,
      They headed home anon;

On the way to home noticed they
      A caterpillar lone;
Upon the road it peaceful laid,
      And on it sunlight shone

As sign they saw that haloed light
      That they did smart and good;
They saw a future without plight
      Henceforth from where they stood

Hippocrates abided by
      The pair avoiding gore;
They swept the creature to the side
      And let it live some more

‘Twas then a myst’ry man appeared
      Clothed in silver garments;
He wore a mask which screamed afeard,
      P’rhaps to lose his argent?

Unfortunate the pair were though,
      ‘Twas not the man’s concern;
‘Twas future things the man did know
      That made his stomach turn

He spoke, ‘that little bug you rescued there
      Will one day cause the end’;
He spoke of coming future bare
      Of human hope to fend

The two however had their own
      Ideas of times to come;
They truly thought that they had sown
      What might utopia become

The myst’ry man did tarry not
      To take them to his home;
He took the foolish sorry lot
      To see what they had done:

They found themselves in future times
      Where ruled a Hitler-bug;
The Hitler-bug a butterfly
      Grandchild of the road-bug

And there they found their good deed was
      Not so good at all.